Episode 5 - Cat´s power and a group of soldiers. Who hunts who?

This episode is about a soft understanding of nature and about love for soldiers and my animal friends.

I would be happy if you joined me.

Red Fox

The full transcription is below, and the audio version will be added on 20th December.

Hello guys,

How are you doing?

Today, instead of talking about Senses as a Weapon, I decided to include in the program one soft story that naturally follows up on the previous episode, Calling the Tribe. And what is it?

Cat´s power and a group of soldiers. Who hunts who?

Let´s go ahead.

One beautiful day in summer, I just wanted to reach my favorite hill. I call it Happy Hill. I was passing a village, and I noticed a black cat with green eyes that was looking at me from an upper position. It reminded me of my dear friend, a beautiful, lovely cat that passed away, or better to say, I suspect she was killed after I moved to a different location. I felt touched, so I showed my respect. I squatted on one knee, and I said to this cat hello in cat language. Then I asked her in my heart and mind if this cat could send a message to my death friend that I am still in love with her, and I always will be.

I stood up and continued on my journey.

Around 20 metres further, there was a second black cat with green eyes, too. This cat was also looking at me from an upper position. The first thought in my head was What is it. I looked back to be sure there were two, and they got the same look and position. Funny, and they both paid attention to me.

I did the same as before. I said hello, I squatted down on one knee, and I asked the second cat for the same. To say hello to my dead friend.

Then I passed the village, and I could finally see my favourite spot again.

When I reached almost the highest point, I looked down, and close to the starting point, I saw a group of men who were running up. Slowly, but keeping the tempo. Their silhouettes, the way of their movements individually and as a whole group, were talking to me. We are soldiers or something around, but I said to myself, maybe they are just some group of runners or just outdoor guys. But my second point was, do I have a new problem? I answered no, they are not here for me.

One man stopped running, and I would bet he looked at me through binoculars.

I said to myself. Of course. The whole group. Why would it be just one soldier for this redhead?

It was similar to one evening when I was on my way home, and as I entered a street, a man appeared who was crazily running, and then he jumped on a road sign and tried to break it down. Very aggressive. No one around. When he saw me, he stopped caring about his thing. He found a better object of his interest, and immediately ran to reach me. At that time, I said to myself, of course. Of course.

If inside the whole city were just one idiot outside at that moment, the probability of crossing my life path would be high. How this works is one of the questions of my life, but sometimes it's better not to ask so much. The answer will come one day by itself.
You just have to stay alive and save. That´s all, baby.

So the same or similar, of course, which I used for times in my life, I said at the moment when I saw these guys.

But I added to myself. They are coming into my hands.

I was looking at them from a higher position, as a cat would love to do, to observe to see to know them well.

I reached the Top. They were coming. I turned myself towards them by my back. I saw this thing in one man who didn´t want to show me his face and side intentions, but he had them.

They said hello to me, and some of them continued along the mountain ridge. I answered Hello too, but when I heard myself, I knew there was something coming in. Nature. It is a moment when a cat would start to play with its tail. It would be processing something, but the question is what will happen then.

One man who heard my answer turned back towards me and looked at me better, but there was some distance between us.

All of them were tattooed and muscled. It was like the strong physical power of that group was going through me, and I perceived that.

I confirmed to myself that they used binoculars.

They separated into several small groups and placed themselves into different posts. I became curious about what was going on there. I continued along the mountain ridge, then I passed the last group on that side of the mountain...I had to hike down the rock to reach the bushes under the hill. When I reached it, I was still in a higher position than the starting point is it. I saw that they have created a temporary base created by cars and a tent. For that moment, I was not going there, but I had noticed two men. It seemed they observed me for a moment, and I was looking to them from deeper bushes above them. I was not sure, but it was looking like one of them said hello by raising one hand and moving it up on one side, like saying hello in a language of some native people, like indians. I stayed quiet.

I was going through the bushes and went up again. I was coming to the first small group of two, who sat on outdoor telescopic chairs, and observed me as a woman. I would say they observed my body proportions. Especially one of them, I noticed that. I moved my backpack from my back to my chest to put some stuff in and hide myself.

When I was at a distance of several meters, it was like maybe I got inside the head of the observer. He was thinking as she covered herself, she doesn´t have breasts...I looked sharply into his eyes, naturally, like What are you thinking about, little boy? And in a second, I moved the backpack to my back to let him see.

I went behind them to reach one of the peaks. I would describe the position of these two as in a saddle among peaks. Around peaks, I had my own stuff to do. I wanted to bring water for animals to different spots, which I was doing throughout the last summers. I did my job, then I reached the first peak, and I looked down. I saw these two guys who I passed some time ago, just like 25 meters away from my position, and I looked up where I saw other groups placed on different peak and along the mountain ridge.

I looked back at two men under, and I was slowly hiking down. Shortly, I realised I did not want to be detected by these two strong guys. I had to be careful also about other groups because this place was visible to them, and they had binoculars. Slowly and calmly, I got closer to this group. How they turned heads towards each other while talking, in one second, I thought they had to know about me, but I quickly released my thoughts completely. I was getting closer and closer to the distance of several meters. I sat down.

And I listened to them. In one minute or a little more, they have said everything crucial about what was going on there, what the mission is, the problem, etc.

I knew time was getting tighter and tighter. I needed to understand nature. I was closer and closer to being detectable. I knew I had to transform my advantage into another point, or I could lose even more.

The time was up. I made a strong movement and stood up to let them know someone is behind them. They both turned back, and I saw nervousness in their faces. Like, what is it? They said Hey, I said it too, and I added Don´t be afraid, no.

I deeply observed these two faces; one was looking at his buddy. Like what is going on here? What will we do? And the second one, who was a bit interested in my body before, he smiled when he understood what I did, and then immediately he started to concentrate power inside of himself.

I pushed the gas. I said thank you, guys, you said everything I needed to know, and I went through them.

Mess in heads a bit.

But my observer didn´t want me to leave easily, and he wanted his position back. He asked me, although he knew the answer, where do I have one concrete equipment for some adrenaline activity that was popular there. I replied I do not need it.

I was not willing to give him my position and his position back, and I knew I had to go. It looked like he wanted me to stay.

One thing that I have to learn throughout my life in pain is that I am not safe in the hands of men, but they are safe in mine.

I continued to reach the highest peak again, and when I was coming to another group, one man smiled at me. I would bet the two ones behind me informed the others about that little thing.

I was okay with that.

I started to perceive this group of several men; they were a bit younger than the previous ones, I would say. Nature gave me an option to read them individually, but I didn´t want to.

When I was around them, they didn´t perceive me as a woman only; they were careful.

When I wanted to continue along the mountain ridge, one soldier used binoculars to look in one direction. I didn´t want to disturb his activity, so I was waiting until he finished, and he was prolonging it a bit. Sweet and funny.

Finally, I passed the last group. They were smiling. I would say they knew I was there again just for them, and I knew it too. :-) cause I love them, and they’re in my favorite hill.

Does it mean I would follow them, give them my trust, take them as rulers, or agree with them? No, it doesn´t.

I was inside of bushes under the hill again. I was ready to go through the leader post and temporary base.

I went along it exactly on the line of the border of their territory. I saw one man in a tent, he wasn´t happy watching me there at that moment, but I did one thing, and he got a smile. This moment was observed by the leader of the whole part of presented unit. He was older, no visible tattoos, calmer. I like it. He didn´t wait until I reached his spot; he went towards me and observed me a bit.

He said hello. I wanted to stay calm and just move with my head, but I said to myself, Do not be too much bitchy. He wanted to hear my language too, I knew it. And I decided I would give it to him.

We said hello to each other.

I hiked up again. I reached the two guys whom I had surprised before. One of them told me so for a second time, hmm?

I responded, for a second time? How many times have you recognized me being around? He looked at his buddy again, like what she is damn talking about. What is this game? But my observer immediately concentrated power inside of himself again, got focused, and started to count. He said a number and I said, Right.

I added. Do not worry. I will not do to you the same as before.

Then I surprised myself and him, too. I went exactly on him and directly because next to his telescopic chair was a track up and I wanted to use it. He moved his body back as I was coming closer.

I didn´t plan it. Anything of that, actually.

I passed them, and I reached the lower peak. As I said, I didn´t want to do it the same as before, so when I wanted to go to a higher peak and needed to go around them, I chose a different track, but I saw how they both continuously looked up behind their back to not be caught by me again. I saw it from the side view. Then I continued to the highest peak. The other guys watched what I was doing, even though I was not close to them as I was preparing my five-finger shoes to go down along the rock. The terrain of this track was a bit steep, and there was no rain for days, so it became really smooth. Then it is easy to fall down and hit the head by a rock around. Before I hiked down, I passed the last group for the last time; they said something that was not true, but I let them.

I forgot to tell one thing, but maybe I will not say it.

There could be a question of why I think there were soldiers. There were more options, I found 3, but then I made a conclusion about which unit and force they are. The reasons I will keep for myself.

I bet they got a bit of mess into their heads about who I was and why I did what I did.

After all, when I came home, and now I will be very honest, I started to masturbate, cause there was also more sexual power that was released. I do not mean mine. But shortly, I understood what I was doing, and I started to laugh. They had no connection to me, no love. Nothing, they just released it. I said to myself, baby, it is just perception, and it will disappear by itself in time. I stopped within seconds of doing it, and really, in one hour or two, the perception of sexual energy disappeared by itself.

The same day, I understood from one concrete situation that there is a chance I could be tracked back. I will not specify it. It was like nature would tell me. Hey, little red, do not forget, you can be hunted back.

I was talking about this story with one man soldier, he was laughing about that, but when I said it, I perceived he didn´t get my deeper points. For the rest of that evening, deep loneliness came to me and covered me in its hands.

That evening, I wanted to do just one thing. I wanted to visit my friend, but she was already dead, the black cat with green eyes. If not, we would take a short walk, she would be happy that I came, jumping on trees around, and play with her tail all the time. I knew she would totally understand this thing. Without one word because she is similar. That was what I missed the most.

She was half wild, super soft, smart, and attentive.

I was thinking about this concrete day. I was going back through the story, and I was thinking about those two cats that I met before going up

I didn´t have the mood or anything like that to do such stuff by myself. But I was getting in by meeting these cats very naturally; I would say, they triggered the deep thing inside of me, but I didn´t know about it until the right time came, and I sensed it, and followed it.

It is not about superficial provocation, etc.

The leader whom I passed there was doing a good job for his guys. But you can be prey all the time. No limits, no rules. I remember pretty well one concrete moment of my life when I had a lot of hard situations of being prey. I had to escape many times.

But one day I became able to change position from escaping prey to becoming a hunter of a bad person who had no good intentions. In real time in a real situation. Gradually, I have become a hunter, too. Cause, it was the only way I could survive more things.

But about it later.

This story is super soft by its nature, and I love it.

I love my natural friends, and I have a big respect for them. Thanks to this love and my connection, I have space in my soul, heart, and body where I can try to regenerate, stay alive, and do good stuff.

My dear friends, I love you.

And for my dear listeners, I wish you all good in the NEW YEAR.

With love,

FOX